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I know she’s probably wondering why I’m crying, shedding all these years but i finally got it finally after all these tears, people treat me like I’m always doing wrong and i deserve it because i allow it, i let people take control of me because i don’t want to be alone,i want someone to love me and cherish me and not make me suffer for it i want them to just give it like i do i want someone to try for me like i try for them, I’ve been trying all my life but no one tries for me in return.

Just last night she promised me forever and now she’s about to break that promise, my world is about to come falling down and my heart crumbling into pieces, I’m drowning in tears because i thought she would be different, guess that’s the end of that life.

There are a million words then again there are none. Where do we go from a beginning that hasn’t yet begun? My heart and mind are open to the many decisions and changes that we will make, hopefully I’m not the only one thinking this way. A feeling of love and security is what i strive for, knowing that will be very hard for me to find. Today i say i love you but in the future i might say i hate you which we both know won’t ever be true. From me I give you the world, i give you my presence and my heart. This is a beautiful sight to see. At the end of the day when all the pain has gone away you’ll still be left with me. I love hard for a reason, that reason i probably will never know, but it doesn’t even matter because i have enough love share. I’ve met wonderful people due to my big heart, why they stayed or left i don’t know hopefully its because their hearts are as big as mine.

When you go down between my legs and give me pleasure… Maybe you’re not understanding so let me start over…..

A gentle kiss on my plump pink cotton candy flavored lips while your soft hands caress my body flowing with every curve and every arch, (the sweet passionate smell of cherry blossom roaming throughout the air)you lay me down across the bed and start kissing on my neck, slowly moving your hand from my waist up to my soft, perked breasts you take off my shirt then kiss my chest down to my bellybutton, you go back up to my lips as you unhook my bra, first a kiss on the shoulder then down to my breasts, you kiss them gently then slowly begin to suck, continuing to caress my body til i get fully aroused you make your way to my pantyline ( not wanting to rush) you kiss my waist then my thigh ( slowly taking off my shorts then my panties) you open my legs then kiss my inner thigh while you run your hand up my outer thigh, you work your way to my pussy lips so pretty, pink and just how you love it WET, you kiss my pussy one lip at a time then slowly and passionately insert your tongue inside of me and French kiss my second set of lips in and out you go with your tongue teasing me, getting to my climax and once I’m about to cum you stop cause you don’t want me to just yet, you insert one finger because I’m so tight you don’t want to hurt me and start penetrating me, once i start getting wetter you insert one more finger inside of me then you start stroking long and deep because you want me to reach my climax but not cum so quickly, as you finger me you start to kiss my clit, stick your tongue out and start to move in slow circular motions on my clit once you see that I’ve called down you start to finger me a little faster and start moving your tongue faster, then you pulled your fingers out and kept eating me causing me too squirt, you licked it up then pulled out your strap and slowly inserted it in me, for hours we went changing positions me riding you stroking then you went deeper inside of me and started to go faster and said to me ” baby come on my strap” i responded with a loud yet sensational moan i came you slowly pulled out of me and went back down, you cleaned my mess with your warm slippery tongue then kept going til i made numerous messes on your face and in your mouth, then when you were done you kissed it, layed on my chest and said ” baby your amazing” i just smiled and rubbed your head because i knew after that night you would have mine forever.

When you go down between my legs and give me pleasure it reminds of the first time we made love…

I strive to be perfect most would call me a perfectionist„ i try to do everything right and make everyone happy but i fail„ guess I’m not so perfect after all„ here i am always looking for the right words to say and how to say them„ looking for the most wonderful thing a person could do for someone„

I realized I’m always making everyone else happy yet I’m always unhappy i need to make me happy first before i try to make someone else happy„

I push people that i love the most away with my insecurities and that kills me inside because i don’t want to lose them„

I guess you live and you learn and this is just only the beginning of my journey

I fall deeper and deeper in love with this girl
My heart travels all over the world for this girl
Distance couldn’t make us any closer
I miss her for the 5 minutes she’s away
I miss her for the time that she is here to stay
She listens and doesn’t judge
When i cry her arms are always opened
She makes me laugh when I’m angry or sad
She says stuff so sweet it overwhelms me and i can’t help but to cry
She holds my hand and we travel all over the world
I pray that she will forever be my girl

I’m smoking with trees and I’m high with the clouds
I walk light my feet never touch the ground
I blow with the wind inhale with the fire
Lifted by the emptiness that flows through me
Gone like a home in a tsunami
Everything in my path destroyed (Katrina)
Tornadoes in the mist living life in bliss……
I’m Lifted

Even though we make each other sad we make each other happy right now we’re going through it but true love never dies in the end we’ll be together….. <3

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Out on these old country backways
Letting my mind wonder and my soul roam free
Top let down hair blowing in the wind as i become one with the trees and the beautiful clear blue skies
No radio „ no cars for days„ just me my convertible and mother nature„
No destination in mind just traveling til i run out of time„
No feelings no care for the world just enjoying every breath that i take and every sun that i see……